Crazy Horse

Crazy horse

A young man stood in front of me. Slightly overweight with a bad crew cut. His left arm was heavily bandaged. He held it out to me like an offering – a kind gesture.

“What happened to you?” I asked. He dipped his head shyly and poked a toe at the grubby, coffee-stained carpet.

“It’s a long story.” He mumbled, “I was in love with a girl. I loved her for a really long time.”

His eyes flashed up briefly to catch mine. Glancing up to the right and back to the floor he continued.

“We always walked to school together – I was, I guess, obsessed with her.” I could see another flicker in his eyes, but of hesitation or clutching at a memory. “I bought her flowers and chocolates, wrote her cards and love letters. For a long time…” he trailed off.

“How long?”

“I dunno…” He scrunched his face up as if he was in pain, then breathed out, “Six years, three months, one week and four days.” And obviously still counting, alarmingly!

“That’s a long time to love someone.” I said.

It’s a long time to love someone if they don’t love you back.” He said, looking directly at me – scrutinizing my reaction.

“So why did you keep writing and giving to her?”

I thought she would love me if I could show her how much I loved her. I thought I could have her. She would be mine – but she left. She came up here, to the big smoke. She got a job, and apartment, new friends – a whole life of her own. What she didn’t realise was that she was my life. So I came to live here too. Then I followed her from her work one day. Just pretended I was in the area and had bumped into her, random like. That was not a very good thing to do – she got really mad and told me to leave…to leave her alone.” He stopped, rubbed his good arm across his eyes and sighed.

“That’s when I got this really cool idea!” His face lit up with his remembered ingenuity. “See, I read in a book somewhere that Van Gough had cut his ear off and sent it to the love of his life. So I thought to myself that I would prove how much I loved her – I would send her my arm. That’s bigger than an ear – it must mean more! So the next day I go to work and do my job. When I thought everyone had gone home, I turned my skill-saw back on and tried to cut my arm off.” He swallows a gulp of air and grins at me crazily.

“Geez, didn’t that hurt?” I ask.

“That’s why I stopped!” he laughs. “I pushed my arm onto the saw and it sliced quickly -which was my intention. Blood pissed everywhere – it quickly got through the bones before I had a chance to pull back and well….it was just kind of hanging off and that’s when I thought to myself; Shit, what the hell am I doing – this hurts! What a mess too. I would’ve died too , I suppose, if the other guy hadn’t heard me screaming before I passed out.”

Β© Kait King, 2015

67 thoughts on “Crazy Horse

  1. That’s sad yet funny. I can sort of relate; in the sense that he was obsessing over someone, not the part that he tries to cut his arm off… where did you come up with this stuff!! Lol!

    Liked by 3 people

  2. Interesting story! The difference between sincere love and selfish love (obsession) sincere love can stay in the heart, while selfish love (obsession) tends to always try to control the outside of the body and everything in between. I wish they would teach a required class in school, β€œHow to tell the Difference between Love and Obsession” .There are so many students that would benefit from this kind of class. I hope that guy in your mystery eventually figured that all out. Happy New Year! walkingjournalist

    Liked by 3 people

  3. Pingback: Crazy Horse β€” The writer’s blogk – Sit. Talk. Listen.

  4. I recently lost who thought was to be the love of my life. Nearly every morning, I sent them a block of text, easily comparable to love letters. They left me. I don’t think I ever got any love letters in return. How could I have been so blind.

    Liked by 3 people

  5. I couldn’t stop reading! It was the suspense – your story is intriguing, and it makes you think what are the limits of one’s obsession. Does one really have to go that far? We have to live for ourselves, be ourselves. Just WOW.

    Liked by 4 people

  6. Amazing work, very well written. I agree with ferrinthemighty on using active voice, but overall still very well written. I’ve followed and ill be sure to check out some of your other posts. I’m a fellow writer myself and would love to get your feedback on some of my posts if you have time. I’m working on a novel currently and I post short stories on my blog. If not, thanks anyway, have fun writing and keep it up πŸ™‚

    Liked by 4 people

    • Thank you so much and I have been over to your site and will do so again too! Yes feedback is crucial, sometimes you can’t see the wood for the trees – so thank you again! πŸ™‚

      Liked by 1 person

  7. The reality of obsession, paints this real sacrifice for Love. But ultimately it’s someone creating a fantasy of how real life would actually be. They have a relationship plan in their head but don’t know it’s not in their hearts. Faith can be beautifully ugly when it becomes a dilution.

    Liked by 6 people

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s