Pain eats you up
it gnaws on my
already
frazzled nerves
Pain is a game
I play against
my self,
my will,
my mind
Pain wears me down
it sucks away at my
strength,
my soul,
my life
© Kait King, 2015
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Let your writing be an outlet for all your pains… physical, mental and emotional. Keep writing coz you do write so beautifully. Lots of love to you 💕💕
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Thank you so much 🥰 Yes, it is a great healer, writing. Very cathartic. Thank you again, for your lovely comment!🌻
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This is so deep in a good way. I love it. So relatable.
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Thank you so much 🙏🙂
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Pain is the precursor to strength
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This is true!
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Keep fighting.
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Yessss!!!🙂🙏
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Pain is a game I play against and win.
Come at me/for me. Visit my dreams, popup in my daydream and I will not be defeated, at least not without a fight.
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Stay strong, big hugs to you!🙂🙏
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I appreciate it. Thank you.
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You are most welcome 🙏🙂
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Very few people with a drug addiction do the things you do . Guilt may have convinced you otherwise. However, if you think you have a drug problem, get off now. No one says you have hit a bottom. AA saved my life. Been there, done that.
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Not an addiction, forced to take medication. It does make you me an addict by the simple fact that I will have to take them forever apparently!Have weaned myself off numerous poisons like methadone and morphine. Now on bare minimum i can cope with pain on. All power to you!! Once you conquer something this big you can take on anything! 😉🙂
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I’m sure you’re right. I know a little about methadone. Coming off that had to be a nightmare. Alcohol was my DOC and it almost killed me.
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In ’98 I had failed surgery. Was 9n Fentanyl, Pregabalin and 120mg methadone a day. They said accept it forever, you’re fucked get over it. I did. I was on that crap for 3 yrs and it took 3 agonizing years to wean myself off most of the poisonous crap. Then 2013 another failed surgery. Begged not to go on methadone so put me on morphine instead….sigh!! It was a nightmare. Still a really bad dream I cant wake up from. Don’t take morphine unless extreme pain now. Nearly died both times, in high dependency unit in a semi coma for 17 days. Cant sur over here either so….bye bye life!
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I only took it one time after oral surgery. It just knocked me out.
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It’s disgusting stuff! Once you stop falling asleep from the dose you start seeing things like maggots in your food which aren’t actually there!!
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Oh, that sounds like fun. Gross
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😂yup!!
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I don’t remember telling you to take more drugs
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That’s what happens when you take more…you forget! 😂😂😂
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Very funny. Sometimes I wish.
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😉😊🙏
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That’s it? They stopped selling Ludes a long time ago. Lol
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Hahaha! I hear a hint of disappointment in your words! 😁😉😁
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Disappointment my ass. Try a year of grief and wearing black. Haha
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😂🤣😂🤣 !!
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I don’t recall it being funny at the time. Haha
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No…but thank dogg we can look back and laugh and we’re not standing in it, crying. Blessings n peace to you 🙂🙏
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True
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Damn😭
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😔🙏
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I’m not sure if my comment went through! I read your comment above about what you have been though. You are amazing! Maybe a silly question but have you tried cannabis for the pain?
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Oh thank you 😊it’s just life, my life, I guess! I never would have been writing if I hadn’t been forced to be still /flat on my back, and not in a good way!! 😁
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Kait, another wonderful poem, giving us a little glimpse inside. If you don’t write you suffer, if you do write you suffer. The pain never leaves, although the drugs help they zombify you. Wishing you a pain free season, enjoy the warm weather and sunshine. Thinking of you more this time of year and hoping you can find that place between pain and pleasure more often in the days ahead xoxo
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Thank you darling Dave ☺here’s wishing you the same but with chillier weather unfortunately! Keep safe and warm. Much love, peace and joy you and yours xoxo
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May love, peace, joy and laughter follow you always 😍😍💝💋💝💋💝😍😍
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And you xoxo! 😁
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😍😍💝💋💝💋😍😍
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And you! 😀xoxo
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Pain is at the very least proof that we are alive. I have felt such pain through loss and hold on to it for it is the only thing I have left. However pain that we suffer in our body is something I would wish on anyone. So stay strong my friend and I wish you better days. I shall recite mantras and prayers of healing for you.
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Blessings and thank you! Much appreciated 🙂
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From what I have read, kait. . You’re a strong woman! And I know it’s difficult. You might get feeling every once in a while that you might just lose it. But I know you won’t! Write it out! You’re damn good at It trust me. Lot of love and take care ❤
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Bless you girlfriend and thank you 🙂 Writing is really cathartic for me – thank heavens there’s something! Thank you again, much peace and love xoxo
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Keep writing and be well! ❤
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https://thelighteningandthefire.wordpress.com/2015/05/01/everyone-is-on-drugs/
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First the visual you chose caught my eye I – very cool – but your poetry was just as good! Since you seem to be a lover of words, check out Aliteralinterpretation.wordpress.com. I think you’ll like it.
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Well thank you very much!! I will do that 🙂
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I didn’t even read the story, I just liked the heading!
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Keep at it man. Drugs are for the weak. The Strong battle their fears and problems, and even if they “fail”, they know that they gave it their best shot!
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I wish it were that easy Sulaiman, thank you for your words – unfortunately I am in a situation of constant chronic pain due to nerve damage and failed surgeries. I hate taking the medication they give me – I have fought for many years to beat my pain, succeeded but had to have surgery 16 years later that also caused nerve damage and triggered old damage as well – I have been on and off some horrific medications – I believe I would be able to give up anything. I have already succeeded at 120mg methadone a day, morphine, fentanyl, and then all your crap codeine, tramadol, gabapentin etc – eaten it all, hate it all, fight it all but am in agony alot of the time – I am trying to find a happy medium as I need clarity to write so I have my gap times that I can write frantically! 🙂 I lived with pain for almost 18yrs – they told me I would be an invalid back then but I refused. I went to uni and got my degree in criminology, I worked in my dream job and lost it all because of some crap mistake in a surgery. But that’s life – maybe writing is my dream job – maybe what has happened to me is just a dream, maybe I can dream I am perfect…but on drugs you just get zombified and I hate it! 😦
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Wow that’s really touching and poignant. I can’t empathize with you, but I am trying to sympathize. Remember, everyone in this life is dealt a different hand, not important what kind of hand.
It’s what you do with that hand that matters. Remember, this world is temporary, we should all just try to do good and leave a positive impact on people before we move on.
I hope you find clarity in your life, I’ll pray for you.
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Blessings to you dude, I am re-inventing myself yet again lol 🙂 as a writer/author – sometimes the universe has a funny way of showing you what IT has planned for you and not vice-versa! 🙂 I thought my way of helping the world was helping the vulnerable, the voiceless – and maybe I can do that – it’s just a different platform I guess 🙂 And yeah, I just can’t give up and do nothing, be a vegetable, roll over and die basically 🙂 so here I am ranting and raving – something I have never done even though I’ve written my whole life. You have a charming and most beautiful spirit Sully – wise 🙂 thank you for your words and prayers – blessings to you and yours 🙂
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Awh that’s awfully sweet of you. I just try to spread positivity, even if just a little bit, in this capitalistic cynical world.
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Don’t stop – we need all we can get in this materialistic place 🙂 I say we’re here to fill our souls not our wallets! 🙂
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Wow! You are amazing! This might be a silly question but what about cannabis?
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Yes, there are so many amazing qualities being discovered in cannabis… Truly amazing. Sadly it is still illegal here in New Zealand but there is hope and support for change 🙂
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Reblogged this on ♥ with love dot I/O ♥ and commented:
reading this made me remember the cherry flavoured baby aspirin in my pocket…
: takes two now:
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What is it that pains you ?
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Oh two medical misadventures – going from hero to zero and it’s permanent and inoperable – that’s why the reinvention 🙂
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