Compare and Despair

Compare and despair

It’s your speciality

how you play with me

with mind in motion

and bodies in ecstasy

Charged

Divine

your laugh trapped in time

Secretly you practice

your lines

A mirror glance

poison flows

those eyes watch with compare

assessing what you haven’t got

collapsing with despair

© Kait King, 2015

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It gets murky…

Jay in suit

It’s not that I’ve forgotten you, sweet angel of mine, it’s that I just lost myself for a little while. You’ve been there so strong and true. Your arms swallow me safely and I’m grateful, so grateful for you. I couldn’t even see your pain because I couldn’t see through mine – the deep dark cloud of despair. I know it’s not forever, but at the moment, a day is a lifetime

For Jay, my nine year old son (at the time) who had to live with me being there, but not there, for nearly five years. I remember just about nothing of that period of time due to the heavy medication I was on. In the photo above he’s twenty 🙂