This was written when I felt empty and numb, void of joy or gratitude…the height of my depression
I know
We’re all dying
But
I don’t really care
Personally I can’t
Wait
To get the fuck out of
Here
Kait King 2019
This was written when I felt empty and numb, void of joy or gratitude…the height of my depression
I know
We’re all dying
But
I don’t really care
Personally I can’t
Wait
To get the fuck out of
Here
Kait King 2019
It would be quite depressing, even the people lament the moment when they narrowly avoided death before.
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Some do. Others lament being saved and want to die….it’s all perspective!
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It really reminds me of Logan at some point. The Guy have lost much but still haven’t given up on life until finally resting with his heart in his hand.
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Sad š
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Yeah, Indeed
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It has been surprising how pleased I am to have passed that moment in my life because of all the positive experiences Iāve had in the years after, but I never forget or fear that in 24 minutes, weeks, or years that unending peace and freedom will arrive. Having minimal regret at the life Iāve lived and am living, I welcome it with open arms.
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That is beautiful!
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My six year old son saved my life. I had taken a load of pills and was laying on my bed. My ex-husband was asleep in his own room, our son in his. I felt my son was better off without me. Suddenly, he was there climbing into bed next to me. āmummy, I love you ā¤ļøā he whispered in my ear. I flew up the stairs and threw up. The next day I went to the doctorās. From that day on I started to rebuild my life. My son now has a family of his own and Iām happily remarried to a wonderful caring man. Sometimes we have to make our own sunshine ā¤ļø
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Damn right we do! What an amazing story! Yes I’ve just been talking with my son and his family in Sweden. Planning a visit if we can in the next few months. I can’t wait š„°
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Life can just be frustrating ššš
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It’s a rollercoaster ride and I’m on for the journey! You just have to find gratitude. Be thankful, count your blessings….some days it can be hard to find them but it’s worth the search in thr end!ā®ļøšš»
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That sounds like a relief ā¤ļø
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It can be, sometimes it’s the little things ā®ļøšš»
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Short n sweet āØ
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I’ve recently been trying to be more open and vulnerable on my blog as a way of battling my depression. It helps to say and write
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It does! I also find it to be a healing process…sometimes the words written down make more sense than the words just spinning in your head. I’m so glad you’ve found writing!
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Kait, there is something oddly comforting in these words. I love that you share this side of yourself. It’s good to know others go through these feelings even when we feel so all alone. We are all in this crazy human thing together. xo
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Thank you Michelle and yes, we are so in this craziness together! Keep safe and well š»xo
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Love and light š
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Thank you ššš
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Wow…just wow !
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I can very much relate. I hope you find your light soon ā¤ļø
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Thank you. It shines within but I still have stormy days ahead šš
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Excellent post. Many won’t put their thoughts into words when it comes to dying.
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I have learned to keep telling myself it is what it is. And to write you must be vulnerable, even in fiction there is a piece of oneself. Thank you šš
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wow! I think from time to time we have all felt this way. But, then there is always tomorrow..š¼. great writing, looking forward to reading moreā¦.
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Thank you šš, yes, thank Dogg for the tomorrow’s!š
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I love how blunt and honest this is
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I feel the same way. Iāve been feeling like this for months and months.
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I so understand. It’s ok, you’re not alone….it’s depression, it’s cold, clinical, empty and numb. I’ve felt like this for years…I feel like I just don’t belong in this craziness. Big big hugs, you will get through this. I write it out all the time, sometimes I publish it and other times I’m just not ready to share. One day at a time, remember the better ones and sleep through the bad ones (I don’t mean physically, although that’s what I do in my situation). Be kind to yourself š
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