I’ve chosen not to wear
my grief and despair
like shards of broken glass
or snapped razor blades
on my less-than-me person
I’ve chosen not to hurt others
although my pain has
an enormous capacity for
imagination or
is that fantasist?
Dissociation, dissonance, disappointment –
I can use it to carve my poor heart a poorer shape
Should I?
I’ve chosen not to
This pain would hurt less
but I don’t need for others to feel
I would rather shelter and protect
Keep safe and trapped those imaginary
demons –
who will come to hover like eye-poking
vultures in their scruffiness
as I lie here
in the night
Keeping that evil, seeping, energy-sucking
succubus of hurt from me
Arms length – keeping strength
and land stretches towards me
the sand and sea – it pulls away
living is movement, not breathing
and earth ties me to a life of dirt
Sunshine and lollipops –
a distraction
merely a time-waster
ball-breaker, man-hater, life-taker
I’ve chosen not to…
© Kait King, 2015
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This is a beautiful and stirring piece. ❤️
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Thank you so much ❤️✨️
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Beautiful and quite emotional piece! 💛
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Thank you! Yes, I struggle with depression and some serious permanent pain – it was quite exposing yet freeing at the same time to write this.
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That is very brave of you. I am dealing with things too and sometimes try to write about them as a third person’s point of view. Not strong enough to come out yet as myself.
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And what a journey that will be! Just be kind to yourself, and you don’t have to tell anyone anything…it’s just real and raw and truths. It comes when and if you’re ready and yes, always good to view from.a third person as well as writing with some privacy.
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Yes, thank you for your kind words. 💛💛
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A pleasure 🙏
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Look at you, having the strength and courage to write – creating lemonade from lemons – helping others process their grief and sadness by giving voice to your own.
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Hi there, I’m sorry your comment got lost somehow. Thank you for that, much appreciated. One way of trying to break stigmas!
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Thank you 🙂🙏
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This is beautiful, inspiring and relatable!!
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That’s so kind of you to say, thank you!🙏🙂🌻
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You’re so courageous! ❤️
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Oh you’re very kind to say so, I don’t think of myself like that, funnily enough!😁🙏🌻
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It’s alright! I didn’t either. But I definitely think it gets better with time. Keep going! 🙂
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Haha!😊 thank you! I will😁🙏
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Thank you so much!🙏🙂
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truly inspiring. just what I needed right now!
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That’s awesome, thank you!🙂🙏
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❤️💯
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😊🙏
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Beautiful. Loved it ❤️
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Thank you so kindly 🙂🙏
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Pleasure
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Nice piece that drowns my emotions.
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Awww, thank you!🙂🙏
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Lovey and great and beautiful and inspiring and wow.
I just needed it
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That’s awesome thank you🙏
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😍💙💚💛💜🧡🖤
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😊🙏
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😊🙏❤
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Thank you 🙏
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True to help those who are hurting because of the hurt caused by near and dear or loved ones. Revenge is never the answer. Good read 😊😊👍👍
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Thank you! 😊 Revenge isn’t the answer, no 🙂
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❤❤
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Thank you! 🙂 x
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Very remarkable piece.
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Thank you so much! 🙂
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